Nell knows a secret about her perfect, beautiful sister Layla. If she tells, it could blow their world apart.
When Nell and Layla were little, Nell used to call them Nellaya. Because to Nell, there was no difference between where she started and her adored big sister ended. They’re a unit; divorce made them rely on each other early on, so when one pulls away, what is the other to do? But now, Nell’s a freshman in high school and Layla is changing, secretive. And then Nell discovers why. Layla is involved with one of their teachers. And even though Nell tries to support Layla, to understand that she’s happy and in love, Nell struggles with her true feelings: it’s wrong, and she must do something about it. (Source: Goodreads)
I struggled with this book, whether to mark it a “did-not-finish” or see it to the end. The way Nell tells her story makes it hard to connect with her. It is like an audio diary, even though I was reading the words. When you speak, sentences aren’t always complete. It had this feel, almost like rambling.
Though I struggled with connecting, I witnessed the ramblings give way to pieces falling into place. Watching as someone Nell idolized fall off her pedestal. Then Nell struggle with being perfect to realizing that being uncomfortable and doing what is right was what was needed. And this is what redeemed the book in my mind. Nell has to make the hard decisions to be both vulnerable and strong in order to stop Layla’s downward spiral.