Published December 2012
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Genre: mature YA/New Adult Contemporary Big Issue & Romance
Series: #1 Hopeless* | #2 Untitled (July 2013)
Rating: LOVED IT
Sometimes discovering the truth can leave you more hopeless than believing the lies…
That’s what seventeen-year-old Sky realizes after she meets Dean Holder. A guy with a reputation that rivals her own and an uncanny ability to invoke feelings in her she’s never had before. He terrifies her and captivates her all in the span of just one encounter, and something about the way he makes her feel sparks buried memories from a past that she wishes could just stay buried.
Sky struggles to keep him at a distance knowing he’s nothing but trouble, but Holder insists on learning everything about her. After finally caving to his unwavering pursuit, Sky soon finds that Holder isn’t at all who he’s been claiming to be. When the secrets he’s been keeping are finally revealed, every single facet of Sky’s life will change forever. (Source: Goodreads)
In the opening scene of Hopeless, you are thrust into mid-crisis. There is kicking, crashing, and screaming. In the moment the hysteria is subdued, you are left with only a few words that will have you trying to reconcile it with the story you are sent back in time to witness.
Sky is a very confident and interesting girl. She is going to start her first year of public school as a senior after being home-schooled her entire life by her adopted mother. Her house has no electronics. No computer. No TV. No cell phone. Her best friend and connection to all things teenage normal is headed off to Europe for six months to study abroad. So she is left to navigate high school alone. Though she walks into school with a built-in reputation as a slut, courtesy of her best friend, she handles it amazingly well. She isn’t caught up in the usual angst, because for some reason she feels comfortably numb around boys.
Dean has a reputation of his own. The rumor is that he spent the last year in juvie after almost beating another boy to death. He is back in town with his bad reputation and toying with dropping out all together. Oddly when Sky bumps into him, he is the first guy to illicit a physical reaction from her. She can’t wrap her brain around why he makes her feel. She is a good girl and doesn’t do bad and sure doesn’t do dropouts or hopeless.
But Sky can’t deny the attraction and gives into the possibility of Dean. Their relationship is sweet and charming with spikes of volatility and moments that scream things aren’t what they seem. On more than one occasion, warnings were going off in my head that Sky should stay away from Dean all together. I wasn’t sure how to take their quick developing intimacy. You want to get caught up in the tenderness. But as the puzzle pieces in the back of your mind try to maneuver themselves into place, Sky’s world shatters.
Neither character will escape tragedy. It is so heart breaking. I think I was almost too horrified to even weep. It was almost too much for a person to handle. And it made me so sad to think that this story might not all be any one person’s tragedy, but every piece has been someone’s. But Colleen’s tale is so beautifully crafted. The beauty is in how each new piece of the story comes to light then twists to fit itself into the overall puzzle. I sometimes could add a new piece, but it never fit quite the way I envisioned it. Hopeless tackles big issues in a mature way. In the end, I was so happy that each had someone to hold their hand and share their grief every step of the way. I walked away from the book thankful for the sky and its beauty and the hope it provides.
Love can always find a way to make hopeless into hopeful.